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This is Droo! Huzzah! If you'd like to learn more about me, read my profile blurb already. Or just skim some of my entries.
Yeah, I'll probably put something a little more meaningful in this place later... when I don't have an assingment due.
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Sep. 18th, 2008 @ 12:21 am Engagement Announcement
I’ll be in Madison for Geek.Kon Saturday, Sept. 27th , as well as the day after. Liz, my fiancée, will also be there for the Con.

Attention, Magic players in Madison (who I want to play EDH and Legacy with): My brother Craig wants to start playing competive Legacy, but can’t find a group that plays Legacy tournaments on any kind of basis. Do you have any recommendations for him?

Anyway, as you may or may not know by now, I’m engaged. If you didn’t know by now, it’s okay. Not everyone checks facebook compulsively. Many of you hardly know anything about me since I left Madison (or whenever else we parted ways). I’d love to get reacquainted with you, so I especially encourage you to leave comments or questions, related or unrelated. Everybody else reading this is encouraged quite a bit, but not as much as the people who don’t really know me anymore.

So, I’ll start painting this picture as broad as I can. As most of you know, I left MATC for the four-year college UW-Eau Claire (UWEC) in the winter of 2007. I went there mainly for three reasons. Firstly, and most importantly, I had a friend who was going to school there, Ben Freeman. He’s got a facebook profile, look him up. If it wasn’t for him, I probably would have gone to UW-Miluakee, or perhaps some school in Minnesota. I also picked Eau Claire because I could choose a philosophy major. I’d wanted to do philosophy since meeting Eric Brooks [/facebook shoutout] when I was a sophomore in high school. I also wanted to go UWEC for a while because I had a girlfriend living in the city, but we’d broken up by the time I made my decision, so it didn’t weigh that much. Maybe a bit, having already made up my mind a bit. She’s Ashley Albrecht (also facebook). Though we don’t really talk anymore, we’re on good terms. We met at an anime convention that Ben Freeman (hooray, Ben!) introduced me to in Eau Claire No Brand Con (www.nobrandcon.com). The convention is run mostly by university students. The year after I met Ashley, Liz joined No Brand Con, and went on to the treasurer, the head of cosplay, and the head of art over the span of ’06 until now. It wasn’t long after I hooked up with Liz than I started going to No Brand Con meetings with her. I kept going to No Brand Con meetings, and was staff during most of 2007. I quit the con this fall, and don’t really want to go into the reasons why right now. They are many, complicated and leave me feeling angry. Leave a comment if you want to know why.
Anyway, I ultimately met Liz through the lunch table I sat at. I went at making Ben Freeman’s friends my friends, and ate at the same table he did at lunch. We socialized, joked, and played a lot of card games like Corporate Shuffle, Flux, and some kung fu game that was really cool. One day this cute girl was giving people head massages, and said I wanted one, too. She gave me one, I gave her one, and we both loved them. Later, after I learned she played Magic, I invited her to come over to a mutual friends’ place to play and build decks. It was there that I asked her out. She suggested Mongolian BBQ at China Buffet, but we wound up going to the Acoustic.
So, that’s how we met. She’s also into D&D and pretty much any other game you play on a tabletop. She’s a Biochemistry major, so it’s kind of interesting knowing that we’d probably never meet if it wasn’t for that clique. I’d spend all my time taking classes in the humanitites building, and she would stay in the science building. Her reaction to religion is generally “no thanks,” and I considered majoring in it.
Fast forward a year and a half to this month, about a couple weeks ago, to when I became sure that I wanted to marry Liz. We’d just started living together, and even though we are still having arguments and adjusting to it, I realized that I could make a promise to live and love with Liz for the rest of my life. I took a two dollar bill out of my wallet, and gave it to her. Aside from the blanket I had when I was an infant, that two dollar bill was probably my oldest possession. I believe I got it for my 2nd birthday. I can’t remember it ever being anything other than one of my oldest possessions. I had it on my bulletin board in high school, and I had the bill pinned there. When I was penniless, I could look at that and say “I may be almost broke, but I still have that in my possession.” When I got my first “real” job with Burlington Coat Factory via Elizabeth van Styn (who has facebook) when I was 18, I bought a nice leather wallet, and started carrying the two dollar bill around with me. And I kept doing it until quite recently. The bill stopped being money to me, and started being a priceless, Glamour-filled object. Back when I was 16, my first girlfriend Alicia Hallenbeck (I friended just a couple days ago) wanted me to give it to her, but I never did. I decided long ago that it would be a great gift, but not good enough to give to somebody who wasn’t going to be my wife. So, I guess what I’m saying is that I didn’t give Liz an engagement ring, but I had something to give her since before Alicia and I had our one-month anniversary. Liz gave me her oldest possession, a stuffed animal, a white kitty. There were tears, it was cute.
Anyway, we’re to be wed. It won’t be soon; we plan to marry March 21st, 2010, the semester after the last one I anticipate having. I suppose if something terrible happens and I need to take another semester of school, we’ll do next March 21st. I’m pretty big on that date. Other than that, we’re pretty unsure about the specifics. Liz wants it underneath a big, awesome tree, and I want a lamb killed at the moment of marriage, and served at the reception. I’ve told Liz this, but I don’t know if she knows how serious I am. I also want a Unitarian minister to perform the ceremony, because as an agnostic philosopher, it’s the closest religion I can get while remaining true to myself.
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Cult of Ecstacy
Feb. 13th, 2007 @ 01:43 am I'm in big-kid college now!
Current Mood: gish.
Current Music: The Infanta-The Decemberists-Picaresque
Holy crap. I'm taking notes on Augustine, and in one example I just compared one of his ideas to the Triforce. And for another section on Augustine, I closed with a passage from the Bone Flower Dharma Book.
Yessir, I'm livin' the dream. I think most of you know this, but I'm going to a real, live four-year college in Eau Claire now. And as you can see, the classes are pretty awesome.
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The Crawling Chaos
Dec. 10th, 2006 @ 12:43 am Hey, I'm using livejournal.
Current Location: underneath a gown and a towel
Current Mood: chill
Current Music: Earth People - Dr. Octogan
http://www.librarything.com/suggest.php

Hey, according to Librarything.com's Unsuggest engine, these are the least likely books to be in my library, (QFT my myspace page. It's slightly out of date. Also, I would link to an author, but pretty much all you gotta do is link the name into Amazon or Librarything's enginges to get results.)

1) The purpose driven church : growth without compromising your message & mission
2) A generous or+hodoxy : why I am a missional, evangelical, post/Protestant, liberal/conservative, mystical/poetic, biblic by Brian D. McLaren (from both The Waste Lands and the Drawing of the Three)
3) The Passion of Jesus Christ : fifty reasons why He came to die
4) Systematic theology : an introduction to biblical doctrine
5) The dangerous duty of delight
6) The kite runner
7) Neverwhere (is acually on my myspace list. It's the one that unsuggested The purpose driven church : growth without compromising your message & mission)
8) Eldest
9) The Second Summer of the Sisterhood

Wow, most of these books look TOTALLY AWESOME. If not that, then at least interesting to read. Most of them.
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Cult of Ecstacy
Aug. 14th, 2006 @ 11:27 am At least one person I'm adressing reads this journal
Current Mood: kinda stressed
Current Music: Forever Walking Alone-Dragonland-Holy War
Hey guys. Sorry I've been ignoring you all. I've been feeling kinda stressed lately. I seem to be dealing with my stress by isolating myself and ignoring my friends, thus making me more stressed out because I'm _ignoring my friends._ I need to get a long list of things done before I can listen to proposals like "Droo let's hang out/do stuff before the summer ends and I have to go back to college."
That's pretty much it.

I need to finish my resume, send it all over town, apply for my last class this fall, and check out to see if they have health insurance for part-time students. And if they don't, well, I guess I'll be taking nine extra credits I don't need.

oh, and send out my grades to 4-year colleges because I'm going to transfer out of MATC at the end of this semester. Or sit on my ass for a semester or two because it's too late to get in on anything this upcoming spring semester.
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The Crawling Chaos
Mar. 27th, 2006 @ 06:35 pm Do this for me!
Current Mood: predatory
Current Music: Opening The Gates Of Hell-:Wumpscut:-Wreath Of Barbs
Alright guys, we're going to try this, I made out a Johari Window and a Nohari Window to map out my strengths and weaknesses, respectively.
Whatch out, this is gonna be... intense.
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Hymn to Tourach
Mar. 17th, 2006 @ 06:38 pm St. Patrick's Day soundbyte.
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Heavy Metal (is the Law)-Helloween-Walls of Jericho
What exactly does St. Patrick's day celebrate?
I assume a guy named St. Patrick did something important, but what *are we celebrating?* It really bugs me that everyone dresses up in green and tries to drink themselves to death celebrating a holiday that nobody even knows what it's about.
In the two or three years I've been thinking about this, only one person has been able to give me a satisfactory anwser.

It all feels so... *sacreligous.* And I feel more and more ashamed of our race as I look around today.
My closest friend at work (a buddhist sorcerer), took off work today so he could go to Chicago and get completely smashed today, and tomorrow.

Until further notice, St. Patrick's day is not to be celebrated by *anyone* except fucking *cathloics* who know what the holiday is about, and proceed doing it with a religous attitude.

EDIT: Mardi Gras also bugs me. But less so, and for a partially different reason.
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The Crawling Chaos
Mar. 5th, 2006 @ 06:29 pm I just fell in love with spinzoa.
Current Mood: full of piss and/or vinegar
Current Music: Winter-Jason Webley-Against The Night
Well guys, it seems as if I've remembered how to roll Arete and spend Willpower.
Yay being productive!
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Cult of Ecstacy
Feb. 24th, 2006 @ 05:27 pm this is more of an update than the previous one.
Current Mood: devious
Current Music: The Star Spangled Banner-Jimi Hendrix-The Jimi Hendrix Ex...
ZOMG! Droo logs in for the first time in a month (or so), and finds out he's been taged!

What were three things when you were little you wanted to be when you grew up?
A video game counselor at Nintendo Power, a voice actor and a movie star. And to be independentley wealthy, but I never really thought that would happen.

You can live one day over again from your childhood. What day will it be?
provided childhood is pre-highschool, the first day of any summer vacation in Ames.

You have two minutes (and a mover with you if you need heavy lifting help!) to grab 5 things from your home before it morphs into a polka dotted hobgoblin and hops away. What will you take? (Food/drink/family/friends excluded!)
My computer, my bookshelf (with everything still in it), my... *shrug.* Excluding clothes and shoes and a coat for obvious practical reasons, books and computer are the only things that really stand out to me.

You have to paint one quote on your kitchen wall. Whats it going to be?
"For what purpose humanity is there should not even concern us: why you are there, that you should ask yourself: and if you have no ready answer, then set for yourself goals, high and noble goals, and perish in pursuit of them! I know of no better life purpose than to perish in attempting the great and the impossible..."
Nietzsche, unpublished note from the 1873

What is one thing you want to have accomplished by the end of this year?
ELIMINATE ALL DEBTS! ('cept those long-term ones to my dad for tuition. Those don't count. Yet.)

You are moving to the moon for one year and can only bring one flower with you. What kind will you bring?
Roses.

You just received word that aside from one flower, you can also bring five books with you too!
Your choices?

The Bible, The Quer'an, The Complete Works of William Shakespeare, some book on or by Hegel, and a good RPG corebook. Y'know, for the mooninites.

I TAG: Hydra, Bridget and Joe
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The Crawling Chaos
Feb. 24th, 2006 @ 04:00 pm Tomato Scouts unite!
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Halloween-Jason Webley-Viaje
Madisonians!

Jason Webley, the finest musician alive, is coming to town this saturday, and I'm inviting you all to come. Even if you haven't even heard of him. Zee and Tony, I'm looking at you. Need further convincing? Here's some bootlegs from various shows some guy collected: http://www.michaelhanscom.com/tomatoscouts/
It's at nine in in the evening, at The Weary Traveller (1201 Williamson St). It's a five dollar suggested donation, so even if you don't enjoy the music you can come and say hi to me. I haven't seen either of you two in forever.
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Cult of Ecstacy
Nov. 28th, 2005 @ 08:31 pm doot?
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Chihiro no waltz-Joe Hisaishi-Spirited Away
Okay guys, it's high time to bring back the epithet. First names are good for a quick and easy way to distinguish people, last names are nice for determining lineage but as things stand, the middle name is stupid and useless. That's why it should be replaced by the epithet. "Droo who Marshals the Thunderheads" sounds about a hundred times cooler than "Droo Engblom." Even though people don't say their middle name, if we re-introduced the epithet we could teach their to take pride in their epitet! When meaning to impress a faire belle of age, my son will refer to himslef as "Gabriel the Enfocer of Nemesi.
Okay, okay. I probably won't know that he'd be a Nemisis Enforcer, when I had to name him at birth. There are two possible solutions to this quandry I've entertained, but I seem to favor the latter. If you had to name them at birth, there are still a good number of attributes determinable at that time. Gabriel the Active could work if he was always kicking in the womb.
But, I think this is a better way, and compliant to the requirements of having the above. At age thirteen, they would have a re-naming ceremony, during which the parents would have both a more detialed and/or specific epithet, and one more likely to be true. How embarrassing it would be to be named "Droo who is Like a Mountian," just because I had a high birth weight!

Sex meme. Cut for the sake of people who don't wanna hear about it. )
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Cult of Ecstacy
Nov. 28th, 2005 @ 06:03 pm Come see me! Swallow flaming knives!
Current Mood: a wee bit peckish
Current Music: Then-Jason Webley-Counterpoint
It might be that after my class involving much touching ladyflesh, we saw a romantic movie in film class. It might be that compared to up north, this morning felt warm, like spring. The immediately-after-rain scent is lovely, too.
Regardless, come see Droo exist as a sexual entity! I'm not exactly sure what it is that set me off *today;* maybe it's me rebounding from dumpage, maybe a week (well, not exatly a week) of Deer Camp re-energized me, but I've just had an incredible urge to bed down every female that made eye contact with me today (plus one I talked to on the phone). This translates into fliratation on my part, and vague alienation on their part. But hey, that's okay! That's all life is really about: making friends, and then alienating them with sexual tension! Awesome! I should call up someone later this evening, and alienate them with sexual tension! It'll be great!
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Cult of Ecstacy
Nov. 14th, 2005 @ 05:25 pm Love is Destructive
Current Mood: infuriated
Current Music: Prelude-Nobuo Uematsu-Final Fantasy VII- Advent Children
Sorry?
Sorry for what?
Sorry that I'm not just gonna say, "It's cool, we can still be friends?"
Sorry that she pains me in way so deep the two of you can only speculate?
Sorry I ever met her?

Yeah, I guess I'm sorry, too.

Do you have the slightest idea what it feels like to be used, lied to, and then tossed aside like a spent cumrag? To be traded in for a newer model? Christ, by a margin of 15 days I'm not even 21.
That's a good eight years before I'm even supposed to be self-concious about my age.

On one hand, I doubt she will ever read this letter, and all my words are simply falling upon the ears of an innocent bystander. You're her friend, you'll never tell her what I want her to hear.
But there's always the chance that she's with you right now, reading over your shoulder. Ashley, does it hurt? I doubt it. Five minutes of discomfort dosen't count. I wish I was there with you right now, so I could personally plunge the dread dagger into your heart. Maybe I'll twist it around a bit, to make plenty sure it hurts you as much as you hurt me. I'd love to see the look on your face, sweety.

Ashley, I hope your poison womb never concieves.

forever
Droo
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The Crawling Chaos
Nov. 13th, 2005 @ 03:13 pm Yay for pointless quizzes!
Current Mood: numb
Current Music: Sorrow-Pink Floyd-A Momentary Lapse of Reason
Taken from [info]evilshoebox, taken from Eric.

The Task: Choose a band/artist and answer ONLY IN SONG TITLES by that band:

Artist/Band: Pink Floyd

Are you male or female: Mudmen

Describe yourself: Learning to Fly

How do some people feel about you: Brain Damage

How do you feel about yourself: One of my Turns

Describe what you want to be: Outside The Wall

Describe how you live: Careful With That Axe, Eugene

Describe how you love: Wish You Were Here

Share a few words of wisdom: The Show Must Go On
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Hymn to Tourach
Nov. 12th, 2005 @ 12:09 am Heartbreak: a bitch
Current Mood: rejected
Current Music: Flora's Secret-Enya-A Day Without Rain
She hangs on her, prompting questions about her ambigous sexuality, while he jacks off to stale porn.

I'm tired of being somebody's learning expierence.
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The Crawling Chaos
Nov. 7th, 2005 @ 05:06 am Mise en Scène in The End of Evangelion: Kabbalah before Madonna
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Summer '68-Pink Floyd-Atom Heart Mother
"If you don't understand it [Neon Genesis Evangelion], it is your own problem."
-- Director Anno Hideaki

When describing The End of Evangelion, most armchair analysts categorize it as incomprehensible. While that assessment has some merit, too many viewers shut their brain off, and cast the movie into the same lot as Pink Floyd’s The Wall, and Dali’s "Un Chien Andalou.” Rife with symbology, even its plot is difficult to discern without frequent examination of its mise en scène. All of the film’s symbols, though, correspond to various things in the emanationist Jewish mystic sect, Kabbalah.

The first thing that needs to be said about The End of Evangelion is that it is not, by any means, stand-alone. It is the direct sequel to a Japanese anime series, “Neon Genesis Evangelion.” Unlike other movies that are direct sequels of TV shows, like Serenity or Star Trek, The End of Evangelion does not spend any time attempting to create a synopsis for those who aren’t familiar with the show; it dives right in. Fan folklore has it that because Neon Genesis Evangelion’s ending was so disliked (i.e., death threats at the director and vehement hate-mail), the studio which made the series, Gainax, re-hired Neon Genesis Evangelion’s chronically depressed director, Hideaki Anno, to create a feature film for retelling Neon Genesis Evangelion’s end, which would have a high budget and 90 minutes to tell it’s tale instead of a paltry 44 minute span (the length of the last two episodes). This, and to insure The End of Evangelion would be as dark as Neon Genesis Evangelion, Gainax had Anno stop taking medicine for his depression.
The End of Evangelion was released in 1997. Its America release was in 2002, and the leading American voice-actors were Spike Spencer, Amanda Winn Lee, and Tiffany Grant. The End of Evangelion opens with SEELE hacking into NERV's core, three supercomputers known as the “Magi.” NERV (German for “nerve”) is contracted out to the JSSDF, or “Japanese Strategic Self Defense Forces.” It is JSSDF’s job to stop 18 supernatural entities, known as “Angels.” Beneath NERV’s headquarters hangs Lilith, mother of angels and demons, hangs crucified and bleeding LCL, the primordial soup from which all life begins. It is said that if an angel would come in contact with Lilith, the result would end destroy humanity. SEELE (German for “soul”) is a shadowy clandestine organization that more or less runs NERV by way of its puppets, chief commander Gendo Ikari, Fuyutsuki Kouzou, assistant commander, and Ritsuko Akagi, head programmer. The hacking was in response to Gendo betraying SEELE. SEELEE’s agenda was the exact opposite of the JSSDF party line of “saving humanity from destruction.” Prior to NERV’s organization, SEELE undertook an expedition to the Antarctic to recover the embryo of Adam: God’s first creation, man or angel. After NERV had killed all 18 angels, (using giant robot-technology, also courtesy SEELE. However, these giant robots, these evangelion, were actually soulless clones of Adam) an evangelion, bearer of Adam’s essence, could merge with Lilith. This new entity would unite with all of humanity’s souls into one pseudo-entity, thereby extinguishing any and all strife in existence. A bit of a different goal than “save humanity from rampaging angels.” Gendo betrayed SEELE by merging with Adam. This would allow Gendo/Adam to be able to merge with Lilith. If this happened the entity-entity to possess the mind of Gendo, allowing him to appreciate the fact that he would be re-united with his dead wife.
Responding to the hacking, Ritsuko Akagi upgrades the Magi’s security. Denied the ability to lock down NERV electronically, SEELE fields dozens of troops to take over NERV by force, to kill Gendo/Adam before he can merge with Lilith. SEELE desires a world of discernable individual souls, not the husband/wife dichotomy that Gendo/Adam hopes to achieve. Shinji and Asuka, both evangelion pilots, were hidden inside their respective evangelions to protect him from SEELE’s swarms. Rei, the other evangelion pilot, was standing with Gendo/Adam in front of Lilith. Rei was not fully human. She was a clone, with half of her DNA being Gendo’s dead wife’s, and the other half being Lilith’s. Because part of her soul was missing, residing inside Rei, Lilith was fated to never be able to heal, and remove her bindings.
Gendo/Adam told Rei to merge with him. Once that were done, Rei/Gendo/Adam would merge with Lilith: completing her, giving her the strength to remove her cross, and make all of humanity whole. Rei denied Gendo/Adam, and promptly merged with Lilith. Lilith, now complete with the part of her soul that was in Rei, and Rei’s mind, preceded to join with Shinji and his evangelion, instead. Rei said she loved Shinji, and desired his mind at the throne of the amalgamation of Lilith and Adam and the entirety of humanity. Lilith/Rei finds Shinji in his evangelion, surveying the devastation wrought by SEELE tearing through NERV’s feeble JSSDF defenses.
Near the second half of the movie, the final merge begins. From here on, the movie focuses on Shinji, and him being introspective. The Egg of Lilith, the container where all souls must go before they merge with Lilith, rises from beneath NERV, into Lilith’s hands, and she swells to planetary proportions, heavy with the collected souls of all humans. The merge is not fully realized, when Shinji, emerging from deep introspection, decides to halt and reverse the process. True, without ego borders, sadness and human drama would be extinguished, but so would pride and happiness. Lilith’s physical form dies, decomposes, and the egg explodes. The evangelion drifts into outer space.
Shinji wakes next to a sea of Lilith’s blood, LCL, primordial soup. Lying next to him is a hybrid of Asuka, Misato (his surrogate mother), and Rei: all objects of Shinji’s hidden lusts.
But perhaps Shinji again chained his mind about humanity’s worth, because he started to choke her. After a few seconds, Shinji stopped and cried. She looked up at him, and said, “how pathetic.”
The end.

Kabalistic themes abound in The End of Evangelion. Most obviously, on the ceiling of Gendo’s office is a picture of the Sepirothic Tree of Life, a kabalistic diagram for existence, and how God’s energy flows from Him, to humans, to the earth. According to kabalistic theory, God’s energy pattern can be categorized into three domains: the pillar of forms, the pillar of harmony, and the pillar of forces. When mercy and severity meet, it is possible to access the third column. The whole concept of merging the progenitor of angels, Adam, and the progenitor of humans, Lilith, to reverse-engineer a universal, godlike existence is very Kabalistic in nature. In Gendo’s office, his seat is directly below Keter, the topmost sphere, and the area that represents God at His purest we can experience Him. This nicely highlights Gendo’s god-complex by orchestrating humanity’s end. Before Shinji and his evangelion merge with Lilith, the Tree of Life appears around him, placing Shinji on Daath, the incomprehensible void between the finite human mind, and the infinite, supernal triad of cosmological forces: God, His infinite energy, and the infinite void into which infinite pours. In a scene before Rei goes with Gendo/Adam to Lilith, we see Rei floating in one vat of a system of vats, set up to look like the Tree of Life. In this instance as well, Rei’s vat corresponds to Daath, foreshadowing her immanent union with Lilith, then infinity.
Synthesis between the Tree of Life’s pillars occurs many other times, one of which being Rei, Asuka, and Misato, the three females involved in Shinji’s life enough for him to lust painfully for them. On all the Sephira, the stations of the tree of life, Rei closely corresponds to the infinite void, Binah. Before anything can exist, it first must be cloaked in death and barriers enough to dim God’s infinite light into the world of the finite. For this reason, Rei’s Sephira, Binah, is often called “the mother of all form. Rei often experiences anxiety because she possesses no real soul of her own. The physical form known as “Rei” knows she’s just a bag for Gendo’s wife’s DNA, and Lilith’s DNA. Through the series, she even died three times, only to be re-cloned. This is in the same way that Binah is also the “bag” for reality. To quote the Tao Te Ching, “We shape clay into a pot, but it is the emptiness inside that holds whatever we want.” Rei is just that bag. The virtuous aspect of Binah is “silence,” something Rei truly is. In the movie, she never speaks above a whisper. In the movie, we see a shot of one of the few things Rei has in her room, a pair of Gendo’s glasses. However, in this shot, the glasses were smashed. Throughout the series, Rei had always been obedient to Gendo, but due to her new love of Shiji, she was plotting against Gendo’s plan, and the glasses symbolize that “shattered” link. Rei’s developing feelings about Shinji show her character developing along Kabalistic lines: fatalism is the Klippot, or “that which slows down/disables God’s light.” By finding someone to fall in love with, she can overcome her more fatalistic attitudes.”
At the beginning of The End of Evangelion, Asuka is comatose in a hospital bed, deeply depressed about her inability to pilot her evangelion. Her extreme pride, the vice of Tipereth, led to hollowness, Tipereth’s Klippot. Her pride was backed by her devotion to being the best, “devotion” being the virtue of Tipereth, who hangs in the middle of the Tree, on the pillar of Harmony. Not surprisingly, that which Tipereth obligates is integrity, which Asuka lacks due to her quick-fire temper and willingness to impose upon others. Tipereth’s command is dare, which very much personifies Asuka. When she incapacitated twelve evangelions in three minutes is an excellent example of that.
Lastly, Misato Katsuragi is Netzach personified. Netzach is on the “forces” pillar, and represents something close to the Dionysian urge. With Hermetic (a large occult organization which uses much of Kabalah) symbology, Aphrodite is a very commonly used magical image for Netzach. Unfortunately, in the movie Misato died rather early on, but we still got to see some aspects of Netzach bleed through. Sometimes Netzach can project an illusion, a figure that isn’t quite what Netzach truly is. This illusion is projection: her, onto others. It may have looked like projecting, in a scene where she gave Shinji a deep kiss to drive home the gravity of her words. Though, it truly was a Netzachian action, because it was done for the very selfless reason of preventing global apocalypse. Responsibility is Netzach’s obligation, and the story certainly highlighted Misato’s difficulties with it, especially her domestic responsibilities. During Shinji’s introspective montage when all souls were becoming one, there was a scene of Shinji watching Misato have sex with a slightly accusatory look on his face. This is when Misato’s experiences and consciousness was merging with Shinji’s, and you could hear her protesting that she didn’t want to let her surrogate-child see that side of her.

The End of Evangelion is a confusing movie, even if you are intimately familiar with it’s backstory in Neon Genesis Evangelion. However, Anno Hideaki is no postmodern Dadaist when it came to his series and movie. There’s plenty to see and take in from the movie by watching it’s various Mise en Scène. I haven’t even started to write about the Freudian symbology, and the implications of lusting after someone who is half your mother.
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Hymn to Tourach
Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 01:15 am developments, developments, developments.
Current Mood: shocked
Current Music: I AM BEING FLOODED WITH INDIE FOLK. SEND HELP
So apparently I'm the co-producer of Gypsy Tree Recording Collective.
Huh.
I'll prolly flesh this post more when I'm not in a business meeting.
*looks all important*
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Hymn to Tourach
Oct. 4th, 2005 @ 03:11 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: dutiful
Current Music: Old Man Time Ain't no Friend of Mine (bootleg)
I've been feeling kinda wierd these past few weeks.
I'm used to cutting through reality, like how a ship cuts through water.
Lately, though, it's kinda been the other way around.

In other news, I FOUND MORE WEBLEY TO OBSESS OVER!!!
http://www.purevolume.com/jasonwebleybootlegs
there it has live versions of Hey Yeah, Old Man Time Ain't no Friend of Mine, and Viaje. If I can find whoever runs that site, I might upload my live version of the Smurf song, too.

I've also migrated to myspace, and am making a half-assed attempt to do something there.
http://www.myspace.com/bihrevmen
It's less than a week old and it shows, through the lack of content.
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Cult of Ecstacy
Sep. 5th, 2005 @ 03:38 pm Countless joys and numerous faces
Current Mood: weeping with emotion
Current Music: the traffic outside my window
I just finished watching The Truman Show.
The last time I saw it was when I was in 9th grade.
It's alot better this time around, since I realized it's about me.
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Hymn to Tourach
Sep. 2nd, 2005 @ 04:45 pm And now, a survey.
Current Mood: fighting the urge to game
Current Music: Mister Garfield (Has Been Shot Down)-Johnny Cash-Murder
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
my answers )
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Hymn to Tourach
Aug. 31st, 2005 @ 09:48 pm The mask of the gamer is the oldest mask I have. Now it's time to break it.
Current Mood: resolute
Current Music: 2 Am-Jason Webley-Against The Night
TrevorMGunter
9:30
Heya Drew.

Drew Price
9:32
hey
I've decided to quit computer gaming.

TrevorMGunter
9:32
What led to that decision?

Drew Price
9:35
It dosen't expand my mind, my social skills, or anything, really. All it does is eat up my time which can be spent by other things better. With even reading I can expand my knoweldge when I stick to the classics like Dune. This ban will not extend to social gaming, multiplayer games can and do improve social skills through tabletalk.
Solo gaming lacks tabletalk

TrevorMGunter
9:37
I'd argue that it depends heavily on the game. While a solo game may not involve much in the lines of social interaction, some tell stories as capably as novels, and some exercise your critical thinking and logical capabilities.

Drew Price
9:39
still, games tell their stories far slower than a book, and it's been a *long* time since I've played a game that didn't totally stress my strategic brain more than just 20% of the time. Other 80 = repeating that stratagey

Well computer gaming, it's been fun. I don't know how long we've been together, but I have a feeling it's been ever since I could point and click with the old 512's mouse. Console games, I've loved you since before we ever got our SNES: Zelda and Paperboy on our cousin's NES was wonderful beyond compare.
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